Why I refuse to give up on myself: my journey at six months


I have a confession: I feel like I have fallen off the wagon a little bit. My life has been so busy the past month, and I haven’t devoted the time that I deserve to focus on healthy choices. I have missed days at the gym, and I have made poor food choices. Part of me panics that I have regressed to my old ways. Even though I’m worried, I know that I’ll be okay. I won't give up on myself. Luckily, I have a great accountability group and newfound confidence in myself. I made a lot of progress in the first half of 2015. I lost 25 pounds and 19 inches across my entire body. What’s more, I developed a lot of healthy habits. However, I’m kind of stuck right now. In the past, when I hit a bump like this, I’d totally revert back to my old ways. Although I made some bad choices, I still devote at least three nights to the gym on weeks that I miss some time. I still continue to lift weights. This week, I started lifting heavier weights. I know that I’m continuing to make progress, but it is definitely slow.

I would not be prepared for this bump in the road if I had not decided to tackle the mental component of my journey from the beginning. I will not give up on myself this time. I refuse to. I know what I am capable of, and it’s pretty awesome.

Here is my promise to myself: I will take the next week to truly reflect on what is going on with me. I want to determine if I am just busy, or if I’m starting to self-sabotage like I have done so many times in the past. If it is really because I am busy, I will renew my priorities and start scheduling in some time for me and meal prepping.

The fact that I am admitting out loud (and to the world wide web, no less) that I am struggling is a new move for me. Usually, when I start to self-sabotage, I will keep it bottled up deep inside to try and fool even myself. Not this time. I’m on to you, mind games. We’ve been working too hard to turn back around now.

Giving up is always an option, but never my choice // The PumpUp Blog

That is why having a good support system is so important. I love the PumpUp community for this very reason. People notice when someone is struggling, and there are so many people willing to offer kind words and uplifting support. So take the time to reach out to a friend today. It takes hardly any time at all, and believe me: it could make all the difference in the world.

Just this morning, while I was writing this post, @operationskinnythighs tagged me in a post about setting goals for the rest of 2015. I want to thank her, because I needed this push toward mental focus. And that support is exactly what I’m talking about. The helpful and healthful community surrounding me keeps me strong. Whether it be friends I’ve made through the app, or the awesome people who continue to read my blog and share tips and encouragement, you guy’s don’t know how much you’ve changed my life. I know I’ll be okay. I won't give up on myself because of all the support. How can I not believe in myself when so many people also believe in me?

So, without further ado, here are my goals for the remainder of 2015:

My fitness goals for the last 1/2 of 2015 -Kaycee // the PumpUp blog

  1. Squat at least 120 lbs
  2. Complete a 10K
  3. Fit into size 12 jeans for the first time in my adult life
  4. Run a 13 minute mile.

I’m pretty sure I can do it, and I’d love to hear your goals for the rest of the year!

This is a post by PumpUp member @k_c, a vivacious blogger based in Central Arkansas. Learn more about her through her blog: voluptuousmisadventures.com